第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。
　　第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。
　　第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。
　　第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。
　　第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。
　　第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。
　　第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。
　　第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。
　　第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。
　　第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。
　　但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。
　　安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

 第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。
　　第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。
　　第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。
　　第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。
　　第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。
　　第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。
　　第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。
　　第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。
　　第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。
　　第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。
　　但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。
　　安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

amazingly this blog has weathered 6 solid years though i haven't been updating much due to the busy schedule. Maybe i should before CNY, until then.


For the record, Tammy is coming SG for CNY =DDD

and i'm almost over you

依然回味着你的声音和那过往的一切.

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看了一下上一篇定下的目标，大多都实现了，我还蛮不错嘛

I wanna do so much but there's so little time! I wanna learn Options Trading, Get internship, take 1 more part time for money, Learn wine appreication, further my french (intermediate class), go overseas for holiday~! so much to do so little time! Every Second Counts from now on..

I wanna learn Options Trading *tick*
Get internship (now joined AIESEC in NUS, will have opportunities to go on one soon!)
take 1 more part time for money *tick*
Learn wine appreciation *tick* (I worked in a wine shop! so i fulfilled two aims at one go =DDDD)
go overseas for holiday *tick*
further my french (okay...so maybe this one have to wait awhile, will do it surely during my year 2 or 3 in uni)
WOW God really help made my path straight, even in midst of all this hectic and chaos I achieve the stuff i set out to do then, without even realising haha.

那些已是很久前的事啦，报告一下近况吧。
6月底开始了一系列的新生营 (freshman orientation) 最喜欢的当然是 Campus Crusade for Christ's Freshman Orientation Camp~!!! It brought me so much more closer to God and I found great support there with me for the rest of my 4 years walk with God in campus =DDD CCC roxxxor =)))

7月别人都忙着办理入学手续， 我却一副事不关己的样子在那悠哉闲哉的跟朋友happy啊，出国阿。上帝保佑直到最后一天我才恍然大悟，虽然匆忙但幸好还是搞定了，要不然停学一年那才冤啊。。。。

Now that school have started, it's been great fun! Made alot of new friends! Besides studies, I joined alot of activities in school, namely:
1)Campus Crusade for Christ~!! (best =DDD)
2)AIESEC ( it's a global internship program sort of)
3)Energy Carta ( 这个要重点说明一下，欲知详情请看下面分解。）
4)Inter Faculty Games Dota (just for the fun of it :P)
5)NUS Investment Club
6)NUS Entrepreneurship Society
5 and 6 are self-explainatory, and i dun need to say why i joined. =P

okay for 3) I joined this purely by coincidence and God's grace. I was always very keen to try for NUS Overseas College - in short NOC. During the matriculation I approached the NOC booth for enquiries, and thet (material science, year 4) was at the booth to assist me, so after about an hour of prolong enquiries (lol i hope i dint bore him out of it) somehow or another he told me he joined this organization called Energy Carta. Energy Carta is a non-profit organization started by a group of youth dedicated and passionate towards clean tech ; environment and making an impact
to change it. As i am an environmentalist myself as well, this resonated with my belief so i was really keen and wrote in to apply to join the organization. And thank God I am in~! Now i am part of the organizing commitee for EC's flagship program Asian Youth Energy Summit 2009, incharge of mainly foreign outreach issues (linking up and coordinating with the foreign youths around Asia) it is really a good learning experience and trully i've learnt so much in EC. The passion for environment makes it all the more fun and exciting! And this is really good for my CV and hopefully aids in getting my application for NOC approved =))) Nonetheless, really thank God for this wonderful experience.

Okay, I think that pretty much summarise whatever I done since the last entry, although i dint elaborate on any of the issue (except for EC)， this entry seems exceptionally long! Seems like i really had a fufilling time after all =) Praise the Lord =)

it've been so long since i blogged lol, wanted to blog tonight but was distracted by my RQ (army superior) created facebook account! lol. No mood to blog already, maybe another time.

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛

难得有空更新一下

难得有空更新一下


其实写这一篇已经长达2个礼拜了，陆陆续续写几个字就被“呼唤”去做别的事情，所以一直没有完成一篇更新。

最近的日子很忙碌，但感觉有点充实却也有点庸庸碌碌；有时很有成就感的工作着；有时像个无头苍蝇不知道在忙什么，然后就陷入生命的意义诸如此类的深思。

一眨眼，都退伍4个月了，在银行的工作5月底就结束了，大学突然从遥不可及转眼间已近在咫尺，又期待又紧张又兴奋又害怕。。。不行啊~我还没开始Relax呢。。。

6 月旅游的行程一直没法定下来，主要是因为《千牵手2009》一直没有下文，担心可能今年计划又延迟。。。若是如此，不知道该不该加入Toh的志愿团队,可 能今年的志愿计划要泡汤了，咳。 不过还是会与一群损友游遍五洲吧。毕竟Daniel 7月就去纽约大学深造了，全家又移民加拿大，今次一别，不知何时才能相见，再聚首，恐已是尘满面，鬓如霜。有点伤感，保重啊兄弟。

听阿贵夸了SMU一大番，有点心动，又去申请SMU了（录取了再决定哪间大学吧），2年没写Essay,差点没要我的命，绞尽脑汁才写好的东西居然因为超时而不见了！！！心痛。

创 业的事可说是崎岖坎坷，许多障碍要突破，But as Donald Trump said :"If you dont have a problem, you dont have a job" We are already at 90/100km of the marathon, if we dont perserve on, all the effort will be wasted.

Talk about kangye's Birthday ba, it was hilarious to make him wear the lingerie we bought for him on the 21st birthday! :D Time flies, it's already 5 yrs since the lot of "shallows" met. Glad to have you guys all this while :)

I wanna do so much but there's so little time! I wanna learn Options Trading, Get internship, take 1 more part time for money, Learn wine appreication, further my french (intermediate class), go overseas for holiday~! so much to do so little time! Every Second Counts from now on..

31,51 72,31 51,',12,81,31 51,91,71,72,41,22.

《庆宫春》周邦彦


云接平冈，山围寒野，路回渐展孤城。
衰柳啼鸦 ，惊风驱雁，动人一片秋声。
倦途休驾，淡烟里，微茫见星。
尘埃憔悴，生怕黄昏，离思牵萦。

华堂旧日逢迎。花艳参差，香雾飘零。
弦管当头，偏怜娇凤，夜深簧暖笙清。
眼波传意，恨密约，匆匆未成。
许多烦恼，只为当时，一饷留情。


许多烦恼，只为当时，一饷留情。。。

因为某种原因让我重温了我04年的日志，原来人真的会变，我以前是多么的天真烂漫啊，现在。。只能说我长大成熟了。

看着过去的日志，昔日种种情感一涌而上，那段日子里的记忆我是不会忘怀的，那种快乐只留存于里记忆里。

It's funny why grow ups dont believe what we believed when we are kids, arent we suppose to be smarter? I used to believe i can do this and do that when i was young, but now that sharpness has been blunted by life. I need to rekindle that spirit.

昨夜收到消息，马奶奶逝世了，回忆起过往的10几年里，她老人家陪伴着我成长，这个消息来得突然，有点无法接受。去年我去北京看她时还精神奕奕，现在却已仙游。世事无常，人生苦短；即时行乐。

I havent blog for the whole year, and if not for grandma i doubt i would blog anytime soon either. But i will try to make an effort to keep this alive, after all it's been the 5 years + of blogging. I remember why i started this blog, but the reason lost to time whilst this blog still survives. Just wish that many years later, looking back, you would have the answer and see the truth in this.

C'est La Vie

擲一個骰子

擲一個公正骰子, 會有多少種現象?

幼稚園時擲骰子, 為的只是單純地和隔壁的同學比大小
念國小時擲骰子, 為的是想買下紙盤上的忠孝東路地段
念國中時擲骰子, 為的是補習前飄進嗅覺神經的香腸味
念高中時擲骰子, 為的只是想要盡快寫完考試的選擇題
進入大學擲骰子, 為的是想搞清楚宿舍桌上的東南西北



現在的妳擲骰子, 卻是想知道他的心是否還在妳的身上
如果是他擲骰子, 是在決定著什麼?

骰子還是那樣完美那樣公正的六面體,
但心中的骰子卻不是那樣的完美,當然不完美的骰子擲出的...通常是不完美的結局

空虚又再侵袭
回忆已不存在
录像被遗失后
往事只能在梦里找寻

那就像一场游戏一场梦
虽然你影子还出现我眼里
在我的世界却已找不到你

我不愿Game Over却又无法Continue...
Counting Down till Time's Up...

pre-ORD OH!

Finally, from tomorrow onwards, I will(should) be on leave/off all the way till 5th dec to collect my NIRC! =DDDD It's BEEN SO LONG....

While cleaning up my room, i found my diary written during BMT(Basic Military Training). Those were the days, green-horn, dunno anything, feel all hype-up about army( the hypeness was erased as time pass). Oh man, nostalgic =d

Did my FFI today, all cleared for ORD =) (High blood pressure, high blood sugar, high blood cholestrol - all negative =P )

Hope to find a job during this few weeks hopefully. But shrugs, we will see how it goes.

My harmonica is spoilt...really need to get a new one.=(

Will blog about my army days somewhere soon when I am free(just plain lazy =P)




=Endless Love=
Quite old but nice song =D

went to partyworld with NS friends, was super fun and funny. For that four hours we put up a series of disturbing shows to the two girls in the neighbouring room XD

most laughables shows(all just outside our room in direct view to the two ladies' room neighbouring)

- eddie sing halfway open door slide-kneel whilst continue-ing the chorus of 《到不了》
- kelvin dance 《对你爱不完》(damn old aaron kwok song)
- eddie performed perfectly《 你把我灌醉》，abit over, and hilarious
- weiwei sing and got lock out of room in an embarrasing 30 seconds.

lol just have to write this down, coz it was sooo funny (even though u probably have to experience it yourself first hand to sense the tickles)



i hope we dont get charged or something for public harrassment, eitherway it was clean and friendly, just hilarious. =D

Bruised and battered,
but it brought me all the more closer to god.
During my daily run somehow took a different route that landed me at a very secluded area. A ring track at the end of the route with only a majestic tree in the middle of it, branching out and overshadowing me, for a moment it felt like god is here, he is my shelter and pillar of strength. And the I literally broke down in tears and kneel and pray. Felt so much better after that (although was embarassed by passerbys) .

Always remember his love:

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. - John 3:16

I wanna give up and really dun want god to deliver me from this, just give it all up. To leave all this behind, even if i have to forsake my identity.But still God carried me through this, thank you abba. .although i still cannot stand her.

The brokenness was awesome. I hope noone read this though, so embarrasing = /

i could hardly control myself anymore,


there's nothing good about home


not when she's at home


it's war and war and nth but war


the only words we speak are swords that hurt the heart


Communication is a one sided thing, she say i listen, or i say she dont listen.


I values family more than freedom, but not this bondage of blood.

vicious lips and deceitful heart and hurting acts

How would family feel like?

I wanna give up and really dun want god to carry me through this, just give it all up. To leave all this behind, even if i have to forsake my identity.

Sweetest Song




Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could've prayed for
There you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad, I'm your man

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.
But if destiny decided
I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you?
And did I tell you that I love you tonight?

I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine.
Its the way we touch that sends me
Its a way we'll always be
Your kiss, your pretty smile you know I'd die for
Oh baby, you are all I need.

Amazing.....

I FINALLY CLEAN UP MY ROOM

IT'S A MIRACLE!

WOOT!

忘了哭







我们一路都忘了哭

was over exerting myself lately...
totally burnt out for sunday and monday. like just cannot do anything, dun even wanna follow up on my property thing.
lucky today, i refound my strength =)

Thank you God for always been with me
and Lord Jesus for giving me the strength and carrying me through.

Pain is the sign that the weakness is dying.

My current discomfort only means I'm overcoming my weakness.

A poem by David Vandenbrink

Does the man born blind
Never knowing the colours of life
Miss the ability to see
How can one miss what you never had
How do you realise you're the only one
That sees the way you see
I feel normal, I live normal
I feel different, I am different
The way I act is not who I am
I was born to fool the fools
I desire what you have only because
I've been told it's better to be like you
Than to be who I am

《女生为何减肥》，转自留园
晚上公猪总是给母猪放哨,他生怕主人乘他们熟睡时把母猪拉出去宰了。日子一天天地过去,母猪日渐长胖,而公猪则一天瘦下去。有一天,公猪突然听见主人在跟屠夫商量,要把长势见好的母猪杀了给卖掉,公猪伤心至极。于是从那天开始公猪性情大变,每当主人送吃的时公猪总抢上去把东西吃的一干二净,每天吃好后便躺下大睡,并且告诉母猪现在换做她来放哨,如果他发现她没放哨的话就再也不理她。

渐渐的日子一天天过去,母猪觉得公猪越来越不在乎她,母猪失望了,而公猪还是若无其事地过着安乐日子。很快一个月过去了,主人带着屠夫来到猪圈,他发现一个月前肥肥壮壮的母猪瘦的没剩多少肉,而公猪则长的油光。这时的公猪拼命的奔跑,想引起主人的注意,表明他是头健康的猪。终于,屠夫把公猪拖走了,在拖出猪圈的那一刻,公猪朝着母猪笑着说:“以后别吃这么多!”母猪伤心欲绝,拼命的冲出去,但圈门被主人关上了,隔着栅栏,母猪看着闪着泪光的公猪。
那晚,母猪望着主人一家开心地吃着猪肉,母猪伤心地躺倒在以前公猪每天睡的地方,突然她发现墙上有行字:“如果爱无法用言语来表达,我愿意用生命来证明!”母猪看到这行字肚肠寸断。人类听到这个凄美的爱情故事也无不为之动容,女孩们为了纪念这段爱情,开始流行减肥……

Leaves, are wings that can never fly;
Wings, are leaves lost in the deep blue;
Heaven, should not have just been my dream;
But I have long forgotten,
How I started to fly.
Loneliness, is carnival of one soul;
Carnival, is loneliness of many souls;
Love, starts when we are together,
But I start to forget,
How I used to have someone with me.
Meals, journey, just myself.
Reading, writing, talking alone.
But where has my heart gone?
I can't see as my eyes are blurred.
I think I have lost more than you.

http://louisnjesus.spaces.live.com/

where i store my fotos =D


still too lazy to blog...

oh btw just brought an indian client to view houses =D had a horrid time preparing (alot of personal screw-ups) but thank god it was good in the end =)

my life quite happening lately but too happening havent got time to blog,
so writing down them so i can blog abt it later

cpt ball
ben and jerry -
lan -
stay over at yk place
go ijc
nite safari
bartley
trekking

think that's about it, but all this happen in 3 wkends omg so bz lar :D

I lost something i treasure alot....please please let me find it back....=(((

comedy - Flubber Disaster

http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1052577992768

http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1052582312876
http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1052587953017
http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1052837199248
http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1052896480730

watch this in running sequence to have the funniest moment of your life XD
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2 other short clips taken =)
http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1007243395368&subj=1175328566
http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1007244915406&subj=1175328566

for the fotos, please help urself at facebook lol,
have yet to blog about the trip...maybe later when i'm done with my mum's work
(i am the laziest bum on earth lol)

there is no problem too big,
God cannot solve it.
there is no mountain too tall,
He cannot move it.
there is no storm too dark,
God cannot calm it.
there is no sorrow to deep,
He cannot soothe it.
He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulder,
i know that He too will carry you. (:

had a very fun monday, will blog about it tml when js finish uploading vids so stay tune! =D

Below is an email my twin sent to me today morning, reach home after work, felt good when i saw this, it's about why god allowed things like the sze chuan earthquake happen - something that shaken me very bad some time back then. I'm really blessed to have my twin, thank God for her =) thanks so much Ms Lu =D

Tried just copy paste here, but abit hard to read, so put it in word. the url as below

http://www.geocities.com/angel_of_hatred1988/EmailFromTwin-WhyGodAllowedEvil.doc

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

before, after and then finally good bye.

Before i met you -I looked forward to nothing, and life is meaningless.
I hated life and thought, why am i even here in this universe.

When i first met you -
Every time i see you, i feel happy and revitalised.
Only then i realised, i finally had a purpose in life.

After getting to know you -
I think about you day and night.
My life was in darkness but you were my light.
The thought of you makes the gloomiest day bright.

When i fall for you -
Although you meant the world to me, you were never ever mine.
Its only fair that i left you alone, to carry on, without any binds.
Thanks for the memories, though i wished i never had.
Because every time i think about you i would feel extremely sad.
At times i will even cry because it hurts me really bad.

My final Thoughts for you -
Although I'll always say i only treat you as a friend, deep inside, i know its a lie.
I really love you but this time, I would have to say good bye.

written by a friend(ben), evoked resembling emotions, copied it over.

Lost the entry...now retyping.

Live range was tiring, having slept at 1.30 am the night before and woke up at 4.30am to go to camp. Had a really hard time trying to stay awake even while shooting, thank god i passed miraculously.

God is gracefully abundant in providence, thank you Father =)

Need to balance earn and learn.

Going off for a run soon.

Forgot what else i typed...